I forgive myself that I have not realized the solution as simplicity within quiet mind presence as not seeing that thinking is indication of doubt, fear and insecurity and trying to create a construct within what I can explain, categorize, process and solve with polarity, definitions, judgments and opinions, instead of realizing the solution as stop the mind and directly see, feel and act.
I forgive myself that I have not realized the simplicity as solution within decomposing complicated and not understood patterns within my mind, personality and behavior, wherein if I am unable to apply direction within clarity, then I am not owned by me here, but of the accumulated consequence of past acceptances becoming a pattern which I choose to trust, without realizing that this is self-disempowerment and self-dishonesty.
I forgive myself that I have ever bothered to overcomplicate, to become frustrated and worried about issues and things in my head, which I felt overwhelmed by and defined as too much and irritating, while not admitting that not the actual problems ahead are complicated, but my attitude, algorythms in my mind to justify self-dishonesty without being aware of the specificity.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that the mind only works effectively if its quiet in there – and within that not realizing that the more I express and live, expand and discover within the quiet mind state, the more I realize that not the mind works but I, as living expression directly move and thus realizing the common sense within always decomposing patterns of the mind until I directly can see each starting point, movement, reason and connection – thus then I can make a decision within awareness and responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have allowed to get attached to, defined by and hooked on the justification of ‘I don’t know’ and ‘I don’t understand’ about myself of how and why I feel or think or do something and not realizing that I can apply writing and techniques and tools to break the self-delusion of not knowing which is in a way of give up, because that ‘give up’ experience gives a temporally relief of pressure and not seeing that this will return and I am slave of my self-created mind-loop-trap.
I forgive myself that I have not realized all the actual specific points in my day to day life, what I react to with frustration and stress, or irritation or dislike, resistance or fear and not realizing the simplicity within consistent application of writing and investigating the words and their relationships within me.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that I justify specific points within me to accept self-created worry when those points are being triggered within me and not realizing that I am not aware of it to the degree of when and how it’s being activated, and once I react, I am sucked into the experience, distracted and within that I do not realize the extent of losing myself, and afterwards not working through what happened and to prevent myself falling into the same again and again by looking the problem and the solution directly.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that self-forgiveness as the basic of self-honesty is the most direct and effective way to prepare myself to be aware and present, understanding and willing to change by seeing action and consequence in front of me without need to think in the mind.
When and as I start to feel heavy within looking towards things what I am not certain about – such as money, world system, partnership – I realize – I am already complicating by carrying my past, judgments, definitions and patterns what I know that it’s not common sense – thus I let the construct in my head go and look at the point with practicality – facts, reality timeline, my physical body, the words I think, say or act – their relationships and I understand – discover, and wherever I see self-dishonesty, as patterns of fear, greed, postponement, judgement, superiority or inferiority, etc – I realize – that has to be investigated further and decomposed to the point of being able to re-define words as action what I want to live without polarity/self-interest and fear.
When and as I am not sure what is self-interest or not self-interest, I investigate – and realize that the doubt comes from not investigating or accepting patterns to move and influence me without being awarwe of their details, trigger point, my responsibility and possible self-honesty – thus decompose, write, forgive, stop and explore in real time application of what’s beyond this specific self-limitation.
I commit myself to decompose all patterns of the mind to be able to see everything I do or think or feel as what it is within facts and to be able to catch self-interest before acting upon, thus prevent consequences to manifest what are not best for all.
I commit myself to reference the quiet mind within daily living application without becoming obsessed or distracted with the point of ‘quietness’ but focusing on accumulation of decomposition, forgiveness and actual change.
I commit myself to enjoy giving myself moments of quietness and simply be, express myself be fully here without reason, goal or agenda but to be my living expression to embrace all what is here and see who I am as life and trust myself unconditionally – and if any of this is being difficult or impossible – I apply the decomposition and investigation, self-forgiveness and move myself to real time change breath by breath.
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