In reflection of my several last posts:
My recent times were quite busy that sometimes had to drop the re-designing, stopping application for what I am changing within myself, however in overall the “self-soldiering”, as I named the mind-pattern has reduced significantly. At times when I find inner conflict, I rather stop, take some deep breaths and to see how can I find the practical solution.
When I can’t find the best approach in one ‘sit’ – I let it go, if makes sense, I make notes and will find it next time.
This seems odd that such normal application has to be pronounced, yet what often can happen is that a person is fully capable of making good decisions when it’s about work, navigating in the world system (buying/registering/taxing cars for instance) yet when it is about SELF HERE in living application in terms of self-honesty, mind-patterns and mind-constructs – a person just takes everything granted and accepting their faith.
Within spirituality – which I am enjoying to clarify – ‘I am not spiritual’ – meaning I do not hold onto anything from this world, knowledge and vocabulary of spirituality in order to focus to become a better version of myself every day.
I find spirituality, such as religions as well a plus, extra construct to utilize and thus creates self-separation, cognitive dissonance and more mind-work, in terms of thinking, emotions and feelings – instead of directly focusing on LIVING WORDS in and as the physical.
Recently was a cool challenge/share in the desteni facebook group about people share a picture of themselves and others share what do they see, “feel”.
It’s a cool play as one has to cross-reference the things being said about oneself and also cool to see how the mind can have a tendency to categorize the other’s comments as ‘positive’ – ‘negative’; or even neutral.
Also during the photo taking application I was focusing on what is going on in my head.
So this post should be about that from now on.
When I took the picture, I was trying to push my chin out as much as I can as in general that’s what I am busy working with. Oftentimes finding that when I pull back into my mind and becoming suppressive, reactive, passive, my chin is a bit pulled back and this is like that since childhood and realized this I can and thus should change.
I also think – based on my observation and judgement of myself – that I am more attractive when my chin is more forward, which is kind of ridiculous and something to re-align with to not get trapped into another self-defining and thus self-limiting construct based on self-interest.
Self-interest is an interesting concept as if self is identified and recognized as all as one as equal as life – and one indeed acts based on what’s best for all participants, then even this term can be re-defined in the greater good.
In this sense that to be perceived as more attractive can become one’s interest with which de-prioritizing real values and priorities in this world.
In this sense the character I was within was to not only pretend but embody strength, stability and playfulness and openness.
Usually I do not give much attention to the immense amount of selfies I encounter on social media – something I should look at why being annoyed if someone posts a portrait of themselves multiple times a day – although I have very specific and refined purpose for using and sharing social media, which is to find and share self-supporting posts, mostly from desteni communities but sometimes also about the world, in general.
Not the action is what can be ‘uncool’ as here ‘taking selfies’ – thus basically me ignoring those shares of others, but also when they share what is the point they are looking at while doing it can make a huge difference.
Of course, also can be that people working on themselves – to liberate oneself from the ego and not doing it in the name of vanity, just when they do not say a word, it can be challenging to ‘judge’ – hehe – such a word.
So yes, definitely a selfie is something what one also can utilize to decompose and release self-delusions, if self-honesty, supportive tools and application is applied (such as the LITE desteniiprocess.com course) or in general writing, sounding self-forgiveness to take responsibility.
Thus, proceeding with my self-forgiveness in reflection to selfies, judgement and reactions to transform my standing and movement into clarity with alignment to what’s best for all participants in my reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how I look and how I perceive myself automatically without questioning my judgement and also without fully understanding why I do what I specifically do in that reaction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience the reaction to my self-judgement of feeling attractive in order to stimulate myself into an energetic state of self-acceptance based on a picture presentation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have not realized the common sensical benefit of utilizing pictures such as to discover mind-patterns and self-judgement to understand and liberate myself from them, or to find unhealthy or unpractical physical postures I accept myself to exist within; instead of straighten my back, pulling back my shoulder, pushing out my chest and putting my chin up in a structured support for me being present, directive and stable unconditionally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as posing when, after a while spending time without being in a healthy physical posture, that I am overdoing it, thus feeling awkward and again – unnatural, unhealthy and not realizing that this overdoing is coming from my mind to compensate what I have accepted and allowed to do, and thus wanting it to undo, more than it is required – and thus exposing the polarity construct within my mind of negative and positive, being addicted to positivism and avoidance, suppression or even becoming paranoid of negativity, whereas practical common sense is to simply re-align into healthy posture without any reaction.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that the strive to be judged as being attractive is due to lack of self-respect, self-love, self-care and self-honesty, thus anytime discovering this need, strive or desire, it is to recognize the opportunity to embrace and practically love myself ; also by realizing that if I rely on others to make me judge myself that I am attractive, I will be always the slave for my own mind-compass, which makes me feel good or bad based on the already accepted and repeated mind-patterns and constructs.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that although it is supportive to utilize my physical body to stabilize and emphasize my physical presence, it is not posture what defines, liberates or directs me but myself from within.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that posture is also an expression and reflection of who I am within as life within self-honesty, thus with this to assist and support myself to balance out the physical application with self-honest approach, application and awareness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others who constantly taking photo of their face, body to share as in fact I might not really know what’s going on with them, what’s the purpose or starting point, in overall their process, thus rather focusing on what I can change and take responsibility for, which is myself here.
I forgive myself that I have not realized the nature of my mind as picture-oriented and sometimes judging myself being ugly, while sometimes judging myself being nice and not realizing that these are inflations of my lack of self-trust and self-honesty and thus they are great opportunity to understand more, stop these patterns and develop consistency and effectiveness within my every day applications.
I see, realize and understand that picture is part of current world system interaction, especially pictures of ourselves thus I do not judge, I do not categorize, do not blame but to see what delusions as reactions I still accept automatically and to focus on stopping, re-aligning, changing to become more grounded, present and directive within the application of what is best for all participants, including myself here without any suppression, overdoing or obsession.
I commit myself to continue re-aligning and finding ways to support my process of self-realization within self-honesty and self-forgiveness through physical body awareness and postures in a self-supportive, natural and patient, confident way as often unpractical, unhealthy postures, such as lump, pulled in chin or shoulder, chest indicates suppression and preoccupation in the mind.