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I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to being obsessed to ass.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define touching woman ass as beautiful.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think about touching ass – instead of realising that within the moment I judged the moment what I am in and as wnd and after judging – a need comes as think ‘away’ from here – but in fact this is about what is HERE.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to program myself and automatize to not be here – to judge what is here – to judge what is acceptable to experience trough my mind and what is not.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as periodically stable – and within this allowing dishonesty and pointing to the periodicity itself – separatedly from me – but in fact I am responsible here – to participate ideas such as periodic I am within the expression or within the participation what is here.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to manifest many desires what I wanted instead of just being here and being comfortable with my presence and experiencing my expression here within and as the breath of life.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to being directed to situations and when no escape from the responsibility – playing about I am well a bit not comfortable because suddenly I became responsible – but it is prechoosed – so I just accept and facing,
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hesitate to stand up for me when is necessary without any concerning – and when others do it for me – complaining inside about I should stood up, and when it repeats then I re accept the experience and experiencing that as weakness – instead of stand up and breath here and accept what is here without judgement.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become unpatient within my expression – because I allowed myself to influence with a knowledge about a foggy imagination what I would like to manifest but in fact it is not clear – that’s why I do not manifest just naturally as I breath here.
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to want many things in the same time- not allowing myself to focus onto and as what I am actually doing.
I am here – I am here and I am doing what I am doing and I trust me and I express myself and I do what is necessary – and I do what is here.
I forgive myself that I want to manifest many things in the same time – instead of just doing one and it is done.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use my human phisical body – using as a tool – as a vehicle, as a machine, instead of realising that this is undivinable from me – this is unseparatable from me at this moment – because I am the responsible for this body and I am within and as this human body – and if I am here – I experience the body as me as one as equal and can experience the breath of life as me here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire to breath properly instead of just applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective application within self-honesty immediately and not allowing emotional movements.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to charge up emotionally trough participation within specific thoughts such as sorry or fear or joy – separatedly from me, because I judge before experience – STOP.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use seeksual desire as a tool to divert myself from here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to have very high-tech stuffs to make the best – instead of just using what is here and not using this need as an excuse, because that’s why I am not expressing myself, because of the lack of tech stuff, such as soundcard,michrophone, lights, cameras, etc.
I forgive myself that I use knowledge instead of just live – especially about allowing myself to continue dialogs aloud about old spiritual friends – about how they misunderstood – instead of just being here and embracing all and within the moment when is here just expressing myself without fear, judgement.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from change.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from loss.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself trough my human phisical eyes.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to have punk hair and speaking about to others instead of just do and will see the consequences.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to be professional musician, animator, director, photographer – instead of just express myself with and as the instument, as the computer, as the camera, as the script, as the pen as the paper as equal.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from expressing myself naturally when my face is like not really flawless – instead of realising that I am not the picture.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to trust me unconditionally.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire to touch velvetlike woman skin.
i forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define smooth woman skin touching as joy – and defining it’s experience and then desiring after the re-definition of experience.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become possessed to definition.
i forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become dependant to redefinition.

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